You will get in somewhere. It may not be an Ivy League school, but trust me the worth of your education will be in the effort that you put into it, not in a name. There’s nothing wrong with community college or going to a smaller, lesser known university. Community college is a great way to get your core credits out of the way and safe money. Saving money is a sensible, smart, and respectable thing for you to do.
You could go to one of the best schools in the world, but if you don’t do well and earn a higher GPA it’s not going to mean much for your future. Make it you that stands out, not your school. You’ve got this!
Sometimes I like to visit the Episcopal church because it makes me feel at home. I’m not religious, but I know what to do when I’m there. I have the prayers and ritual memorized, so I feel as though I’m in a safe place as I go through the motions.
I’d like to think that the photograph of legs and feet I just posted isn’t intended to be sexy, but instead was taken so that we might better appreciate the simple yet beautiful things about our bodies.
Sometimes I wish that I could go back to the way things used to be. I look at old photographs and think that I’d like to be that girl, the one who’s traveling to Italy, Paris, and Barcelona and who takes silly photographs of her friends on their many adventures. I’d like to go on Art Retreat and light paint and take pictures of my friends dancing in the rain. I’d like to be the girl who’s a bit thinner, appears to be a bit more carefree, and who writes about love. There are times when I think that that is who I am, or when I miss that girl, and then I sit down and I just can’t remember what has changed about me to make me different from her. It’s like she might still be here with me.
Maybe it’s my situation that changed. Then I was in high school, and now I’m in college. Then I was traveling in the summer, and this year I was stuck at home. Then I seemed to know where I was going, and now I can’t quite figure out what the hell I’m doing.
I know that I’m at school with a plan to study what I care about and do what I love. I joined a sorority, but I know in my heart that part of that choice was a challenge to myself and part of it was a plea. I plea for what, I don’t know. To fit in? To feel included? To identify with something? I’ve never been one to identify with groups. Generally, institutionalized groups are limiting rather than freeing, and I find myself upset as a result of my inability to meld into an idea and at the fact that I don’t want to. That’s not who I am. I don’t fit and I don’t like the person I become when I try to pretend that I’m like everyone else because I am not.
I’m not entirely sure where I’m going with this post other than the fact that I’m unsure of where I stand in so many aspects of my life right now and I think that I need to take a break. I feel like, just maybe, part of me is pretending to be something I’m not, and I’d really like to stop pretending and let that go.
I really am feeling very very sad. What’s wrong with me?
what i’d really like is for someone to objectively watch me for a week or so and then just sit down with me for a few hours and explain to me what i am like and how i look to others and what my personality is in detail and how i need to improve where do i sign up for that
I have had people tell me that they want me to do this for them. Seriously.